Hello there friends.
Well, where do I start with this...? I guess it's best to start as if I've not said anything in a while. (I've left what needed to be said in journals on my Deviant Art and Fur Affinity galleries)
For those not in the know, I'm on the mend from a hefty depression that sent my productivity to absolutely nothing. To think back, it was a long downward spiral that started in 2011 and ended up destroying my sense of self-worth to the point that I was on the verge of completely giving up. I would go days and at times weeks without drawing anything worthwhile. Many of the promises that I made, the Patreon plans, commissions for various clients and Ruler of the World Round 2 was lost in my own feelings of worthlessness that felt impossible to combat. I'm very sorry. I was dreading to face the promises that I had broken and felt like I was disappointing everyone by just existing. Believe me, in spite of folks repeatedly saying “You're awesome.” (thank you, by the way) it was a difficult obstacle to overcome and accept, it became impossible to take any compliment and I'll be honest it still is a little hard to hear such things. No, the thing is, YOU are awesome.
Back in February I moved from Colorado to Missouri to live with my husband and his family, and have been recovering from depression since then. I've had a lot of time to reflect on many of the negative things in my life and try to be a better person. I've also realized that lately I've been keeping a lot to myself. I don't mean to be that way.. but I don't really have much to say, and when I do it feels trivial. More often than not I feel like I'm just complaining or that I'm annoying other people by saying anything at all. That and I've got a temper that tends to get away from me when I have a spike in anxiety, usually caused by me feeling like I'm annoying folks.
I think the summary is that I'm a completely different person than I was even half a year ago. So let me say a positive thing and maybe it can get even better from there..
Here is Sasha! My little runt of a dragon, being cute as a Sasha tends to be.
Which each page the fight for Ruler of the World creeps a little closer...